#181 counting days

Just a few days to go. Can you imagine after 5 years being here as an Afzanian, i'll finally make a move to another phase, leave this place with a bunch of  lovely faces that will be missed. Wow its amazing how I can feel the love from each of them. Allah please keep this love forever in me. 💕

#180

Dont stop.
It has started.

#179 last piece

Its bothering me. Showing me an old picture of mine, knowing that you still keep it with you in every step of your life. Touched. But you know i wouldn't let myself slide into the same feeling i had for you years ago. I dont know about you but i have decided to let all our memories flew with the wind away from my mind, long ago. Lets move on. Life has so much more to offer than what you see in the past. Let all bygones be bygones. I wish the happiest life that could be for you. For all the goods and bads, sweets and sads, with a humble heart, i would like to offer my highest thanks and biggest apologies. Words are never enough man, i know. I wish this is my last pieces of our story. Yea it is. 

#178 zikir

Bismillah.

"eventhough i write a lot of subhanallah, alhamdulillah, mashaAllah and stuff, it sounds awkward saying it. i don't know why, but when i do want to say it, it'll come out as a whisper. like i'm saying it to myself"

I quoted this somewhere. Because it happened to me too. 

#177 chores

Bismillah. 

Doing chores really wouldn't give you pocket money. It is about responsibility and sincerity. 


Sincerely,
Munira Anuar

#176 death

Bismillah. 

Kerap dengar berite kematian lately. Dah lumrah, bile kite lahir je, kite dah memang perlu bersedie untuk mati. Dari mane kite datang, situ jugak kite kene kembali one day. To those who experienced family members meninggal dunie, I hope that they will be strong enough to face the days afterwards. It's not easy to live a normal life without your love one around. And honestly i'm not yet ready to face it. If it to be happened on me, I hope i'll be given super extra power to stand myself up and accept the fact.

*takziah buat keluarga classmate kami Syed Zaqhwan atas pemergian ayah nya menghadap Ilahi pada tengahari tadi. Moga sabar dan redha hendaknya Z n his family. Moge kekuatan luar biasa buat keluarganya menerima pemergian ini. Al fatihah buat arwah ayah beliau, Moga ditempatkan dalam kalangan org yg beriman hendaknya. 

#175 stress

Bismillah. 

It is hard you know being a person like me. Hahaaa

I am stress but my face showed that i'm not. It's not that i'm not happy with my ability to keep myself a peaceful kind of person, it is just that sometimes I think I acted peacefully and caused people think that I am ok to be kidding with. 

This is not a problem. But it is a problem. Hahahaa. Though it is not important for others to know about my problem, but still I want them to have some respect to my emotional conditions. 

For example, I am super worried about my assignments till I cannot even think about other things. Then, people should have not throw jokes to me. Because i'm being serious thinking about my assignments. Haa contoh laa. Ni contoh ringan je ni. Hahaaa

So, people, please have some respect towards other people feelings and emotions. Because it's a matter of unseen disease u know. It's hard to pretend that your condition is under control but actually it is not as it seems. 

Ok, to test your understanding. I have a question based on my bebelan pendek kat atas : 

Adakah saya stress?

#174 age

Bismillah.

I get very upset seeing them aging. It gets a little hurt everytime I saw them walking hardly. Sitting uncomfortably. May Allah makes everything easier for them to get through. 

#parents #grandparents 

#173 memories last forever

This short note is actually dedicated to my one and only younger sister. I know she misses her friend, Anis. But now Anis is no longer with her, us. She is very far away from our world. I know my adik she understands and redha with her best friend's death but she can't help herself thinking about her. Their memories were just very meaningful. I hope adik u read this. I know you are strong just like me. Everytime u think about Anis, u can always send her your love by reciting Al Fatihah for her. She will definitely sleep in peace knowing that you still remember her. InsyaAllah. Allah knows better. Alhamdulillah. Thanks to Allah for this opportunity having a good sister like her.

Al Fatihah to Nur Anis Arina Mohd Asri. 

#172 Anis in memory.

Baru je aku tulis tentang Anis in my previous entry. And now she is entering another world. Al fatihah buat Nur Anis Arina yang baru pergi menghadap Ilahi malam semalam 29/1/2015. Moga tenang hendaknya Anis di sisi Allah yang Esa. Moga tabah keluarganya. Redha itu yang utama. Yang hidup pasti pengakhirannya mati. Kita yang masih bernyawa mungkin hanya sisa, nanti menyusul. Anis, Kak Mun akan ingat Anis as a strong girl. You were strong dear Anis. I hope that Zihah will be strong just like you. Allah. 

#171 Anis

She is a sweet girl, best friend to my lovely sister. She is sweet to me because she is a girl with manner. She is a bright girl full with confidence in herself. Her effort to always trying to use English spoken with me was no joke. The moment after she knew that TESL is my major in maktab, she said she wanted to take TESL macam aku jugak.

And now she is having a "rest" in coma struggling her body to stay strong. I know that you are stronger than you can imagine. Stay strong if you can. Come back to us when you are ready. And if it's not for us, remember that Allah is always there for you.

Mohon doa buat sahabat kami, Anis Arina. Moga dipermudahkan segalanya buat nya. Moga diberi kekuatan yang luar biasa buat keluarganya. InsyaAllah.